If only he knows...

I like someone..he is so close yet so far....he is so matured, smart and he is exactly the kinda man i like...the only setback, my low self esteem...i feel like i'm not good enough for him...well, i know he has better options, and i cant be forcing anyone to like me...but i wish...i wish he likes me...Its not like i like him for his smartness or his looks, i care least about those stuffs...to me, he is matured, focused, slow and steady and knows the importance of life...that attracted me to him..well, yeah i do know him(we are kinda frens) and i think he does know that i have tiny eenie weenie feelings for him..but he is ignoring it (hurt)..well, i know there's someone out there who could see me beneath my dark fat self and can accept me for the true human i am...but for the time being he is my eye candy...i will name him...Mr.Shadow Lover...so in future when i tell you guys of what happens, at least its easier to identify who i am talking about ...*wink wink*

If only he knows how much i like him... :-)